Ok it's almost 10 months since my first post. Gosh, I've planned that I'll be continuously writing, but see how I broke my own promise? Hmm. There're soo many memorable things happened in the last 10 months, and now I'm facing my 3-months-holiday!
I've spent more than a month of my summer holiday for... sleeping? I've tried to find some activities which can make me a little more productive, but it's failed. I also didn't take Semester Pendek (SP) because in this holiday I was planning to go to somewhere abroad for a student festival, then if I took SP I'd miss many classes. Unfortunately, there were some problems that made me not able to go to --let's call it-- my dream country. Then can you imagine, not trying to be conceited, but I haven't any plan to do here! Here's the point that slapped me on my face: I'm doing nothing while most of my friends doing internships, organizations, or some green/charity activities.
So inspite of sleeping all day long, I'm doing blog-surfing. I just read a lot of blogs which are soo inspiring! Those blogs are my friends' who have the same age as me, but they've done so many amazing things! They involved in so many organizations, being one of the head of department. They did everything just soo cool. They got so many scholarships to go abroad, either for summer courses or conferences. And they are also a good writer. They were busy in so many activities but their GPA is still cumlaude! They chose to do something outside their comfort zone, such as doing internship faraway from home, or doing Indonesia Mengajar, K2N, they devoted themselves to country. They chose to do something useful not only for them but also for people around.
Then I looked at myself, what have you done, Fathia? Oh, I feel terrible. Actually from those blogs I can learn so many things. Someone could be good at writing but couldn't speak in public, could be good at business but poor in languages, could be good at singing but poor at school, so on. I realized that people really are amazing just on the way they are, so do I. God is fair --although I still can't understand some cases such as a girl that is beautiful, rich, clever, has handsome boyfriend, and (seems like) has a perfect life--. Sometimes fair doesn't really mean equal right, there's always an exception :p
Hmm looking at these outstanding people I'm not gonna say I'm jealous, I'd rather to say I'm suddenly highly-motivated :p. I'll be 21 years old next month but to see back then, I haven't done much! I satisfied with my life, I proud being myself, but I'm just sure that I can do more. I can be better. What I have to do is doing something extra than the others. There must be more outstanding people out there than these persons that inspired me. I don't plan to be better than them, I plan to be the best I can be :)
Yep to bring my dreams into reality isn't an easy matter. I've to go through tortuous way to achieve it (but sometimes it's just a smooth way for some people -.-). What I have to do is keeping the spirit of my glory! But it's not only myself-factor that can realize my dream, I also need supports from people I love. I thank God for giving me such a really lovable family, wonderful friends, patient yet annoying and insensitive boyfriend, and all surrounding people. All the things I've done 'till now are motivated by them, for making them happy, especially for my mom :* I believe that I can be a better girl (or woman?), so to you who might be reading this, please also help and support me on every way, because surely I need it :)
P.S.: Please kindly inform me for any activities I can join, especially in this summer holiday term :)
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