When a hard decision proves that it's worth to make..

Hi! How's life getting along? Mine went so blissful lately! :)

I have a total different life compared to what I had, lets say, 6 months ago. I'm now officially became an employee, which change my life flow at most, been a month being 23 years old, and I'm single. Haha.

I'm triggered to write since I'm now sitting in a car facing hell-alike-traffic from Subang to Jakarta and am not even sleepy. Been contemplating for quite a while about decisions I've made in my life makes me realized how big it impacts mylife afterwards.

Looking back at the time when I was so confused whether to take German Studies UI or to gamble another majors by following SNMPTN. I wanted to be International Relation or Economics student, yet ended up being a Bachelor of Arts. I often think it was a wrong decision, I hate the german class, I hate the lecturers, and I hate literature (found out after I entered my major LOL). But the bright side is, in UI I could explore myself by joining soo various and thoughtful activities. I was involved in several organizations, committees, events that gratefully enriched my life’s perspective. I met different people in different places with different backgrounds. Beyond that, I learnt as well to live alone away from family, to handle loneliness, detestation, anger, to earn my own money, and many many other things. One other thing I love from my major is that I could take minor class inside and outside my faculty such as philosophy, psychology, and other languages. I gained more and more knowledge! :)

Step up to higher level of life, I had to face real life after graduation. I had to choose what job I’d take. I applied to almost all job recruitment I’m interested in. I joined in soo many company tests, failed some, succeed some, and took one (of course). I applied mostly to Management Trainee program. Went through long process, I have once accepted as MT at one of distributing company in Indonesia. As a freshgrad of course I was so confuse either or not to take that. Considered one and other things, consulted to amateur till professional, I nervously rejected the offer. I was of course afraid if there’s no other companies accept me. But God has always better plan, buddy. I was accepted as MT at one of Retail Company. I wasn’t that glad at first, especially since I was expecting to be accepted at another company. But surprisingly, I love the job! Every week, every Tuesday till Thursday, I’ll do business trip to factory I’m in charge of, which is in Subang and Bandung. My job demands me to be mobile, to not only stay at office, and to face so many people. Even though it feels tiring sometimes, but it’s fun! Will share about my job later :p

Last but not least, I finally decided to break up with my (ex)boyfriend. It was a long story between me and him, we broke up and got back together several times. We were together for almost 3 years _not sure how to count it since we had some “breaks” haha_. Once he asked whether we would really stop or get back together as we used to. It wasn’t easy to really decide to kick somebody off from your life LoL, especially when he witnessed every important moments happened to your life in the recent years, but we agreed to stop meeting each other and face each other’s life. It was kinda hurting at first seeing him with his new one haha, but there was the day, when I heard something about him that makes me realized: I do deserve even better than him! When someone couldn’t give his best for you, but he could to other girl, is there any other reason for you to stay? Nah, I’m not saying he’s bad, he just suits other girl better that he suits me :p

Going through all this life experiences, I'm sure that one doesn’t always have to make a right decision. You surely will learn something from any decision you make, however small it is. You just need to live the decision, work for it persistently and face each of the risks :)

"The risk of wrong decision is preferable to the terror of indecision." (Maimonides)

Cheers!